hate me,if you could

Did, u say you know me?
Think, just think once more.
You say I am nice.
Consider, not once, but twice.
For that’s not true.

I am evil headed,
Psychotic,
Unbothered for else,
Mean and cold hearted.
My smile is a hoax,
A disguise,
Am warm hearted?
No, a deceptive boaster.
I am a cheat, I am a liar,
Please! Hate me.

Don’t hate me,
For you can’t love me.
Hate me,
For I couldn’t love you.
Hate me,
For my greed,
Hate me,
For my insecurity,
Hate me,
For I am hateable.
Please! Hate me.

I am coward,
Scared,
And on run of commitment,
Masked by scar,
Camouflaged under mystery,
Not for the fear of unknown,
But uncared concealment.
So,
Please! Hate me.

Hate me!
For you love me
Hate me!
For you can’t love me.
But,
Please! Hate me.




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what i always disliked bout us...

Do you dare speak the truth?
Do you dare speak about you?
Do you dare being familiar with you?
Do u dare held your head high?
Posing to be truthful,
Why do we make lies the sustenance?
Posing to be virtuous and pious
Why do we lust the vicious and evil?
Candidly, we pertain people to villains,
Overtly, blaming them for all ills,
Snubbing their crooked means,
Discarding corrupt manners and polluted antics.
Awhile
Concerting our honour
And gesture;
Outlining intellectuality
And righteousness.
Why do us, behind closed doors,
Extend our hands
Against what we stand.
Where is the accountability?
We ask others for.
Call us hypocrite?
That’s how it is, someone responded.
Is hypocrisy, that momentous?
For the kindness and justness,
We, so, demurely speak of,
Why do us, adore,
Cruelty over compassion?
And prejudice over tolerance?
Don’t we know?
This callous and insatiable yearn,
Would bring doom to all.
The society,
We so, earnestly endorse and strive
We so, flawlessly love and belong.
Are we cowards?
Scared of being us,
Concealing ourselves,
Treading the path others outlined,
Refusing error as natural and normal,
Pretending perfection,
When imperfection is the only truth,
Before death that do exist.
Couldn’t we stand for us?
Rejecting deceit.
Couldn’t we revolt?
Seeking what we consider truth.
Couldn’t we love?
Us.



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The journey to Itafort.

It was really pleasures to be at the Itafort. Being loc's first meeting outside NERIST, it was full of joy & some hot discussions. Photo sessions were done in the premises.The basic thing i learned was to write blogs after each meeting which i think is necessary to keep the momentum going. Pd criticised everybody for following the graph of exp(-at), which i think u(t) needs to be multipied here. Also Saurav felt the need to take loc at heart and enjoy each & every moment. He stressed on the need to create a difference out of indifferent folks. To fill up the difference parameter we r going to start a exciting debate compt. between a few faculty members and students. I think the move will publisize loc and its members.
Though the journey to atlantic ocean will continue, there are exciting rounds as well as learning sessions for all of us.

come on yaar!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I want to fly, to scale those heights, to excel in whatever I do, to do something for my parents, country and society. I know I will be able to face tomorrow with faith and hope, if I tackle today with enthusiasm, interest and enjoyment. I know I'm the master of my own destiny. Whatever I desire, I will get. I take baby steps over a concentrated period of time and hey, I find my mission accomplished. I know I'm unique with special talents and gifts. I give my own definition of success. I know I will rise to the pinnacle of summit by developing and utilizing my talents with zeal, dedication, enthusiasm and sincerity.

I have the courage to dream, to take risks, to look beyond the horizon. Because then only, I will be able to make harbor in the tempest.

I acknowledge my emotions and monitor my thoughts. If I don't, the emotions will hold me back and negative thoughts will give negative results. I don't let the situation dictate the terms, I become the dictator. I wish to enjoy. I want to have a great time. I want to be rich, powerful, popular and famous. I desire to be liked and loved. I nourish and allow my thoughts to grow, no matter how farfetched they may seem in the beginning. I give wings to my ideas and let them fly high. I know success depends on attitude rather than aptitude.

Come on, Neristians. Let this 'I' be you all. Let the world know you. Together, we can and we will make a difference. Don't settle for less than what you deserve. With adulthood on its onslaught, questions tend to rise at the speed of light. Life is all about finding answers to those questions. Some answers are found very easily and some seem taking a life time. Continue to search not for the answers, but for the questions……………………………..

A GRAND TEACHERS vs. STUDENTS DEBATE@NERIST

On this Saturday, 15th March, 2008 NERIST will witness her most grand and most innovative event of history.

It would be a TEACHERS vs. STUDENTS debate...
Isn't it thrilling??

We will have best speakers from both sides representing the two very important aspects and pillars of society...the faculty and students....


Hereby I call for ideas for topics !!

I have collected the list of questions from NERIST community from Orkut, but I call for more innovative but root level questions which we students always wanted to ask teachers...

Hoping to see you there in auditorium this Saturday....

For the alumni I will advice you to visit the following site for further information from where the Idea came out....

http://locnerist.blogspot.com

This is SAURAV, Electronics and Communication, 2k3 Batch

I am hoping for a enthusiastic response from present students as well as those who are sensitive enough towards such initiatives, and I PROMISE YOU, THIS IS JUST A BEGINNING OF A NEW ERA FOR NERIST.

My big brother says " Wohhaa !!"

After having a quick look at our blog, the first few words were,"bahut achhi hai
तुमlogo ki creativity ko salaam !!"


However he failed to recognize Poly, and asked if she was one of my teachers !!
Dont worry Wisdom lady, one day very soon your picture have to be posted with some mischievous look on your face..
So, friends Hats off to us !!
Best of luck for the MID SEMESTER !!

Seventh meeting: Game On---

If you know others, you will be wise,
if you know yourself, you are enlightened।

Being Myself ...(Full Stop)

Trying to change
in the name of evolution
Evolving to become what i'm not
In the rush of blood,
getting behind the crowd....
Full Stop.

Enjoying being Saurav,
being myself,
pure ! And no more.
Embracing loneliness,
does not mean being weak....
I was strong alone,
but the illusion of becoming
stronger with company
excited the change....
Full Stop.

Enjoying being Saurav,
being myself,
pure ! And no more.
I loved but once
been practical but twice
but it was my own fire
which kept me walking....
Full Stop.

I am still walking
even if alone.
Enjoying being Saurav
being myself,
pure ! And no more.
...

The meeting that we had

We had been meeting if not everytime,atleast regularly.The sixth meeting i found wasn't bad at all.But we had been getting too much into love,when none of us really had fallen in love.I wonder when one falls in love ,we would need all the experience that we shared.whatever..
I instead want to confess two things that was to an extent a lie. Firstly,I referred my feelings for the girl in school as one of the most priced possesions ever.But factually,I did like that girl once upon a time but there's not a little bit of nostalgia attached with her.
secondly,There's always boys talk that we could never speak things in front of gals,that lies with me as well .
Finally,saurav i could have easily reminded you an incident that you wd have hated to be brought out.C'mon man don't be scared of being normal at times.
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अर्ज किया है !!

तुझको करके तलाश देखूंगा
फिर से होकर उदास देखूंगा !

जिस से डरता है हरेक व्यक्ति यहाँ
उस से होकर खास देखूंगा !

वो मेरी प्यास के मुकाबिल है
आज मैं समुन्दर की प्यास देखूंगा !

सारी दुनिया में तलाशा ख़ुद को
अब तेरे आस पास देखूंगा !

ये अँधेरा मिटे ना मिटे
फिर भी करके प्रयास देखूंगा !!
फिर से हो कर उदास देखूंगा !!
फिर से हो कर उदास देखूंगा !!






वाह वाह !! वाह वाह !!

Valentine's Day: Perfect Day for Expressing Love

Have you ever risen(read fallen) in Love?

May be this is the most frequently asked question during our early stages of life...
But how often we end up saying the "TRUTH" ??
Valentine's Day is the day when we shall readily ask ourselves, that among all the persons we came across till now in life, who are the ones we shall acknowledge for the love we have in our mind(read heart) for them.
Go Ahead !! Take a mirror and tell yourself, "I Love You".
And ya, call your parents and let them know how much you love them.

ALL THE BEST GUYS..............IT'S TIME TO OPEN THE GATE

The day finally arrives..................
be +ve, face it,take it with ur mind open................
cool the nerves....................
go for it.............

IFfffffff............

IF

Rudyard Kipling


IF you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you,
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or being hated, don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise:

If you can dream - and not make dreams your master;
If you can think - and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with worn-out tools:

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breathe a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: 'Hold on!'

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
' Or walk with Kings - nor lose the common touch,
if neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you,
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And - which is more - you'll be a Man, my son!

Bringing you some current affairs !!

Oh i am sorry, did i say affairs? I wont tell you about the latest girl out of PD's magic bag, no...
I meant the spectacular inaugural ceremony of the 20th Atheletic meet of NERIST,though under 'flood lights' where, it seems,the flood was meant for the pouring rain because there was hardly any light.
But not taking the credit away from the organisers,they did splendid job against all odds,three cheers for all of them.

And L.O.C. was proud that Rohit Rai led the parade with brilliance and grace which was expected from him.

And obviously, INFOSYS... About which everyone is reluctant to talk,but keeping their fingers crossed.
Here is L.O.C. wishing all members best of luck for the next big thing...
Make us all proud !!
Also extending these wishes to all NERISTians,we hope for the best thing to happen.

The power of those three words....

I was just wondering the other day.....

how many times do we (un)knowingly express our feelings to the person we really meant to,but still what is left behind is saying those three words.
Means, we act in the perfect way,we talk in the perfect way, we do all such stupid(read special) things to let the one know that yes,you are the one,but still cant say those three words.

Those three words,
as if each and everyone out there is a fool, and need to assure that what they are seeing is making exactly the same sense its making.

But then, i understand that it takes courage to say someone, "I LOVE YOU", and even more courage to let your love go from right in front of your eyes to decide whether its coming back or not.

I was just wondering the other day.....

Fifth meeting:- LOC in full song

Just a passing by information to those who are interested,
in the 5th meeting it started by RELIGION,and ended ön Cricket.

Now i can say boldly even in LOC that "Cricket is my Religion."
First GD conducted and many more things including the EC newsletter... soon

IS there a Question mark on L.O.C. !!

Nope. Nahi. Is the answer, so do not worry, keep reading as lots of hard**** stuffs coming your way...


Thats what I call the spirit of L.O.C.,
This conversation took place between two members, amidst Manish Sir was taking toll of Magazine boy...and some repelling charges were in the air..

Anyways,
Saurav: What were you about to tell me "in person", as per your late night comment(online)?
Rohit Rai: Please let me have the context...

Followed by he was handed over the LOC blog on my super cell,(I consider it so)..anyways..

Rohit Rai: At least we are out of that fantasy that we always called as friends. You know for better, the narrow mindedness of this people.You remember after

your birthday picnic.I told you, I reacted to that poem incident because these people would never take things positively, would never take things

sportingly. Why did you forget that?

Saurav: Who are we & who is this?
'They' are not the only one to be blamed, some of boys told them,"They cant support gals, even for right purpose, because boys will tease them in

boys hostel."

Rohit Rai:We & this that's for you to understand.We are the people you still consider friends and "this"-you feel could not take the right things in the spirit(both

boys and girls). i know that, that's why I don't blame Girls. In fact I dont blame anyone. Its only that I am hurt, it happened and extremely happy that it

happened sooner than later. But still I feel you should have been in Picnic. I still don't support you for that. And yes, you were probably not entirely right

that evening? Don't you think so.(In case, If I know the incident correctly)

Saurav: What is it to be "entirely correct"? Or for that reason, what is to be only "right"? Who will decide who was what? If my "WORDS" used are in question,

I feel sorry for those who took it otherwise, if my "TONE" was in question, then why couldn't they see my gesture when I promptly stood up, before

anyone else to leave the place? I feel Sorry for NUPUR, for such a sweetheart she is. I know she could not stand in front of me, but then what was

I speaking about at that place? I had nothing to do whether boys drank or not, I was trying to put a point which surfaced during boys meeting in

PD's room the other night.
Rohit Rai: The same thing dude. You had chosen the wrong listener. but that does not mean I put the blame on girls, neither on you. the only thing I feel bad for is

the way people reacted after the incident.
The whole thing was your gesture, if it certainly meant what that was, was certainly misunderstood. But I would not fall in the mess of determining

faults, because I do not consider it to be fault, this things happen. Its only the after plot that I am not really happy.

We will talk over this later, before that you read my blog as well. I would publish it this afternoon.....

I feel let down by none other than who i called "FRIENDS"

Is it rift? Is it grievance? Or is it something very different.

If it is anything, it was ego working at its peak. People had been saying LOC has got nothing to do with it, But factually speaking I could only keep wondering if we could keep ourselves at bay from our prima facie.

However others be excited and be sincere towards it ,I wouldn’t shy to admit the fact that LOC doesn’t even come close to the feeling of being EC 2k3.

Today, I really want to go back a couple of months and relate a incident. Once when saurav asked me about me being over reacting to the poem incident, I told him in very straight words that though you could take it the way it meant to be but not everyone is ready to do that.
And this was the mistake, saurav, you possibly committed. In my entirety, I could back you up for what you said, not really falling into the mess of deciding who is at fault and who walks away clean, but I could not forgive you for forgetting what I said that day.
I talked of not forgiving you because it was you who started this, I couldn’t forgive you maybe for being rude. But that by no means pertains you are at fault, it’s only humane that one make mistakes.
But there are mistakes which don’t really are mistakes, they are blunders which the harshest of corrugations wouldn’t erase. And the damsel’s decision to avoid rather boycott the picnic ,I am petrified, falls into this category whose repercussions ,a couple of people would feel throughout life. I say a couple of people because there are some who never was EC 2k3ian and would never be and some other has left no stone unturned to it not be EC 2k3,and obviously everyone knows who I mean that by.
I wouldn’t mince words. It took me and a couple of people bloody whole lot of work to bring the branch together in 4th year after that shit of a rift in 3rd year. And after that,all for this.
Lot of people said lot of ill things about girls, but I always stood apart for I always felt however and whatever they are, they are lovely human beings and I would proclaim without being shy that I always considered me their friend but today I am truly doubtful if they ever considered me their friend. And if I have to speak up, frankly, I would say “no”. Today, I sincerely feel that all this time that they had been so nice to me, it was all a show off bound by formality and would have been happier had I wouldn’t have bothered them.
Personally, Today let me frankly reveal that out of nupur, meenakshi, poly and paro, I could have called only three as a friend and undoubtedly I would continue considering them that way whatever happens, irrespective of the feeling they have for me. And personally, I don’t have any reason to have grievance against them as they are still nice to me, though that I can’t, of course, assure it being genuine.
But as an EC 2k3ian, I am hurt.
Still, it remains a fact that personally I had got no bloody business to do with it .And it’s all the same with me whether anything happened or wouldn’t have. And, I am sure none would personally hold any grievance against anyone. So, to sum up, we would still live, LOC would still survive, though on the shatters of that fantasy what I always called EC 2k3.

You really think you are ready to read what i want to write

On a second thought,or may be third i got to know,what kind of people,am surrounded with.

And i got to know more of myself."Its always nice to know more of yourself" this had been my 'dialogues' for quite sometime,but this time I was not so glad.


But 'the' one thing i want to tell the world,and remind myself simultaneously is that, "I CARE A DAMN".

If only I could fly

If only I could fly,life would have been a different place to live in.
It is a beautiful place to be in,as we saw in a drama in which only common sense was not common.
Its raining finally,at about 06pm,as if the allmighty decided enough is enough,and ec guys must have already wrapped up themselves after a jubbiliant day of having fun.

Giving a second thought is always important(if u cant give a 3rd or 4th).
And i had my date with my sweetheart.(i ll tell you sm othr time)