Rain........

11:18 a.m.to be crystal precise....

10th july,2010

its raining profusely....dark clouds...cold air...me sitting in my chair with lappy in my lappy...a bottle of water just being the only companion.....seeing those rain droplets falling under the gravity or are they really??......or may be they are crazily in love with the earth....they fall and they lose their identity...ekdum unconditional love...no expectations...no demands....careless...juts crazy to meet her love....nature has so much love to offer...pure, serene......guys have you observed one thing?

rain droplets...if you try to see them directly in the sky, they are not visible...if you try to see them in a black background...may be the window...they are so visible....you can estimate the size, their velocity and u can actually feel them.....wait a minute...someone's knocking on the door...i will come back....

11:28 A.M....hi.......madhusudhan bhaiya the....he came to return his umbrella.....let me say something about madhu bhaiya.....he has been such  a great wallmate....a great advisor...friend....big brother....taking care of me....i admire him because he has struggled so much in life...ekdum self-made hain bhaiya.....pure heart and agreat guy......

haan to hum kahan the....yes.....rain drop visibility....why they behave differently when seen under different backgrounds....or its we who are perceiving it diffrently.....and a sudden thought comes in the mind....dont these rain droplets symbolise people around us....the environment surrounding us....they behave differently...they act weird....they argue...they love...they quarrel...different situations......actually I am confused....may be I have made you all confused...you might be thinking that sachin is behaving weird!!or am I or its how you perceive me.....

when we look around us..there is so much to think....so much to ponder over.....questions aur sirf questions hi aate mann mein.....answer search karne jao to mann restless ho jaata hai.....confusion paida hota hai......dilemma hota hai.....par zindagi rukti nahin.....chalti rehti hai.....it has to...

you know guys we all nonlinear dynamic systems......we are affected by so many factors....multi-body problem.....we have so many feedbacks...sometimes khud bhi nahi pata chalta hum aise behave kar rahe hain to kyun kar rahe hain.....why we go through so many emotions.......kabhi kabhi jab log agal bagal mein aise behave karte hain which you dont like....then we only see the present behavior of his and decide how we behave with them in the future......but remember we are unaware of what happened with them in the past.......future cannot be predicted without the inadequate knowledge of the past also.......for me its because of the ignorance about the past that we argue, quarrel.....behave weird......but let me ask you all.....who decides what is weird.....who decides all reasons.....what is logical thinking.....who sets the benchmark.....science may not be able to answer this.....but may be we, humans, can........if we start accepting people around as they are.....we start thinking more.....start acknowledging others presence......may be one day we will find......then we will understand the beauty of that rainfall....those rain droplets.....who fall and even when they fall, they dont lose their beauty..............

i am feeling like crying....

take care guys....

I sign off at 11.50 A.M.