what not to do in the last semester.......

I don’t know whether I’ll ever be able to recover from this....don’t know how things will work out for me...don’t know where will i be 3 months hence....don’t know what i don’t know....so much chaos, so much uncertainty in life....life never ever before raised so many questions....never ever i ran out of options.....people used to give example of how much lucky i am.....but seems luck has also ditched me.....yes i am feeling very low, down and out......i want to cry.....yes i am hurt ..i’m feeling like a loser...but i don’t know why??
Enough of emotions.....before i start crying i must stop.....
I’m thinking of writing a book.....”the three P’s of my life.. what not to do in the last semester”....friends i suffer from short term memory loss.....whenever i’ll write the book i’ll need your help for the correct stats and dates....
How the seven semesters passed??? Pata hi nahi chala....but the adventures(read misadventures) of the last semester will remain etched in my memory......GATE, first proposal(!!!), convocation, Shristi, returning the quiz paper blank, losing both cricket matches, not able to play the last match(thanks to the blank quiz....and saurav i’m extremely sorry for that)....oh god ...i did everything to screw myself up......
But then this is life.....just a sinusoid function...crests and troughs make the function complete.....life teaches you new things in each and every moment.....life always gives you options.....our perception, the preconceived notions make them invisible.....
I’m shy....i agree...i speak less...i agree....but why....this time i know why??i always thought if i say something that hurts someone then i’ll never be able to forgive myself.....whenever i want to tell someone something my mind splits....one part thinks for me and the other one for the someone....then i get confused....
I want to write more......but having fuzzy quiz, project report submissions, project....and i don’t want to screw myself further....
i still wish if my mouth had a backspace key....
Au revoir!
Saba khair
Jai ho!!!!!!!!!!!